Almost Friday

Thank goodness it's almost Friday. I dont think I could handle one more weekday this week. Chase has been a holy terror every morning for the last week. I am thinking that he hit a growth spurt and now we need to adjust his meds accordingly. On Tuesday he got into one of the girls stuffed animals, a monkey stuffed with little foam balls. Apparently, there was a hole in it, so he decided to make a bigger hole and then he proceeded to empty the balls onto the floor of his room. When I went upstairs I just about yelled at him, he just looked at me like "you're the one who left me alone for too long mommy, and because of that I decided to do something to keep me occupied", I calmly asked him to stay in his room, told him that he was going to spend the rest of the morning, until school, in his room and that he was to eat breakfast in there as well. I went downstairs and dealt with the other three kids and asked Chase to come down and make his lunch. When he came down he started running around the house screaming and playing with the other kids and I just kept begging the kids to stop, of course they didnt listen and mommy just about went nuts.

On Wednesday Chase was just not listening to me at all, it wasnt as bad as Tuesday but still a bad day.

Today Chase was not listening (yet again lol) and I had a migraine so of course I was already in a bad mood, well I had had enough and I ended up yelling at the kids (all of them) and I put them all on a time out. I had asked them to clean the living room before they got to eat breakfast, I think the boys picked up one toy and put it away and then they were running around being crazy, the girls were still in bed so I thought it was the perfect time for them to clean up. Apparently not. So, I just sat there watching the boys, asking them to clean, begging them to clean, refusing to feed them til it was clean. At that point the girls got up so I asked Carson to grab the girls. They all came back downstairs and then all four of them were running around, the time was ticking away, it was almost time to leave to take Chase to school. I reneged on my earlier bribe. I had to have them eat breakfast, I couldnt stand it if I didnt feed them. I then asked Chase to finish making his lunch and while he was dicking around YET AGAIN I told the other three to get into the van. Bad idea on my part. Chase was taking too long, all of a sudden I hear the horn go on the van, April was in the front seat pretending to drive lol. Cute but not so much. As I was going upstairs to go to the bathroom before I went outside (stupid mommy again) Chase ran outside and screamed at the kids that they need to get out of the van, but then hopped into it himself. I ran downstairs and yelled at them to all go on a time out. I told Chase to make his lunch or he would go to school without one, the other three were on a timeout on the chairs outside while I stood watch over Chase to make his lunch and so I could see the others while they were on timeout. Then Chase was finished so we went outside to get in the van and Chase started running around so of course the other ones wanted to run around too. Well then I got really mad, my face went red, my jaw clenched and I screamed at the top of my lungs, I would be surprised if my neighbors didnt hear me. I told them all to "get in the goddamn van", "all of you are grounded off your bikes", "no baseball", "you all suck" etc etc......

I drove to the school angry and I sped, cut someone off and came to a fast stop to jolt the kids. Chase got out calling me a "twathead" as he got out, ran across the front of the van and tripped. Well me being a mommy (even tho i was super mad) jumped out of the van and ran to see if he was ok, he was fine, I kissed him and told him that I was sorry and that I love him and to have a good day at school. The fire sizzled out. I was no longer angry.

When the rest of us got home I was cleaning and asked Carson, April and Aggie to help me clean because we had a visitor coming over. They didnt want to help so I sent them to their rooms to stay out of my way so I could clean and not trip over any of them. They all fell asleep for a bit. I got the house cleaned and when they woke up we had lunch and our friend came. After that the rest of the day was good.